Hello everyone! I hope that all is well in Blog land and in all of your lives outside of here. In the past month I have heard of so many new blessings of new additions to families with more to come! Geez you people are getting Biz-Zay. I am so happy and excited for everyone and can’t wait for that day to come for me. During these times I start having a mental debate, ping ponging thoughts and reservations around in this little brain of my. Hence my title, “The Great Debate”.
Maybe it’s a girl thing of not being able to make up our minds but one day I want a baby and the next I am thankful I have the freedom to do whatever I want. UGH, I wish the decision came easier and that hormones, family pressures, and my own wants and needs could just “Fall into place”.
I am 28 years old, married for 3.5 years now, have a great job, and amazing things happening in my life.
I have been given the opportunity at work to go through a year long Emerging Leaders Institute which allows me to travel 5 times this year, go to Washington D.C to advocate for TRiO Program funding, and to enhance my leadership skills and networking through this process.
In February, I get to travel to Las Vegas, NV for an additional training and my husband and I will get to go to Belgium for his work (If we get our passports in time).
In May, where going to Omaha for a weekend away. We can literally pick up at the drop of a hat and go, go go!
I suppose when I think of all this opportunity coming my way I get worried about my life choices. I want to be a mommy. I know I am going to be GREAT at it! But everyone I talk to in my job world keeps saying, “Wait on it Brittany, the opportunities in front of you right now are here and with a family it may be harder to do these things.'” Then I’ve got the family, friends, and my other part of the brain telling me that I am ready to make this commitment.
I don’t want to be the OLD mommy that waited longer to start a family but on the other hand do I want to surpass my work opportunities… I’m only 28.
Here’s the other thing, I know that I can have a balance between both worlds BUT if NOT having a child at this moment in time allowed me to fulfill my opportunities in my career shouldn’t I wait longer.
I suppose the question is very open ended and leaves me no better off then when I started writing this.
Maybe I will have that magical epiphany that so many people tell me about, “You will just know its the right time”.
If only the decision could be that easy.